Update + Thank you
Hey everyone, I know I haven't been active recently (I made my last journal in April!), and I don't want to make excuses, but here's a bit of backstory:
Last week I finally decided to end my relationship of six months. The only way I could describe it is as a black hole that sucked the happiness out of me. I've been extremely depressed the past six months, so much to the point where I didn't want to talk to my friends or do anything but lie in bed all day (I even considered suicide once or twice). I've grown so much happier since I broke up with Cameron; I've realised that he, or anyone else, should not have to validate any part of me for me to be worth something. I was unhealthily attached to him and what he thought of me, and he was, in a way, mentally abusive (though I know he didn't do it on purpose). I have chosen to remain friends with him, as I have for four years, and I am extremely grateful that he is in my life--you can't learn a lesson until you take the test.
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